{"product_id":"taming-the-monster-of-postpartum-depression","title":"Taming the Monster of Postpartum Depression","description":"\u003cp\u003eAfter a night of struggling to sleep, her baby was crying. And crying. And crying. Kim was exhausted and \u003cbr\u003edesperate for the noise to stop. Then she had a thought that frightened her. She could see herself \u003cbr\u003eholding her baby under the water so that the crying would stop and she could go back to sleep. \u003cbr\u003eThis was not what she had imagined motherhood would be. She loved her baby, but her intrusive \u003cbr\u003ethoughts made her feel like a monster. \u003cbr\u003eKim Vermaak tells the story of what happened when postpartum depression entered her life, but her \u003cbr\u003estory starts much earlier than the birth of her baby. \u003cbr\u003eKim is a second-generation adoptee. Her mother was adopted, and her father had a troubled childhood \u003cbr\u003eof his own. Kim spent more than a decade in foster care before being permanently adopted. Her \u003cbr\u003echildhood included abuse, neglect and abandonment, and she grew up learning that some things were \u003cbr\u003esimply not spoken about. Vulnerability was a weakness you had to hide. \u003cbr\u003eThese were the experiences and lessons she carried into adulthood. Research shows that childhood \u003cbr\u003etrauma can increase the risk of depression later in life. For Kim, those experiences also shaped the \u003cbr\u003erelationships she formed, the choices she made and the way she responded to difficult situations. They \u003cbr\u003einfluenced how she showed up in her personal life and as a new entrepreneur. For years, she adapted \u003cbr\u003eand kept going.\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Kim Vermaak","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":45745840193712,"sku":null,"price":540.0,"currency_code":"ZAR","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0632\/9181\/8160\/files\/TamingtheMonster.png?v=1793196713","url":"https:\/\/www.mzansibooks.co.za\/products\/taming-the-monster-of-postpartum-depression","provider":"Mzansi Books","version":"1.0","type":"link"}